Feb 10, 2014

Vampires and werewolves as a feminist allegory

Both vampires and werewolves are the result of biological attacks on the population. The first attack produces vampires, who tend to be women. It initiates a debilitating illness that forces them into a position of weakness. Later it is discovered that they have access to considerable power in this state, but only by preying on other people and drinking their blood.

To combat this power the vampires have discovered, a second attack is launched to produce werewolves, who tend to be men. This biological agent increases physical strength, but also increases violent tendencies. It is hoped that the werewolves will subdue the vampires and bring about the state of affairs the architects of these attacks originally intended.

I'm not quite sure how this situation will be resolved (if it even will be). Maybe there will be an all-out battle. Maybe the vampires and werewolves will realized that they're both victims and start cooperating. We'll have to wait and see.

Feb 7, 2014

What's wrong with peroxides?

In my last post I mentioned that antioxidants are helpful because they assist in dealing with peroxides and other Reactive Oxygen Species (no, science nerds are not immune to the Capitalize-Everything-for-Dramatic-Effect Syndrome). In fact, every organism I'm aware of has some mechanism in place for dealing with peroxides. That raises the question of why peroxides need to be dealt with so badly, and that's what I'm going to answer today.

Let's begin by explaining what a peroxide is: a molecule in which two oxygen atoms are single-bonded to each other. This is a fairly weak bond, prone to breaking. Additionally, oxygen has one of the strongest affinity for electrons in the known universe, so when oxygen bonds with other atoms it takes on a slight negative charge. In a peroxide, these oxygen atoms are arranged so their partially-negative-charged selves are right next to each other. The resulting repulsion makes the bond even more prone to breaking.

Now, to explain what happens when the bond actually breaks, there's something you need to understand about electrons: they "like" to be in pairs. The most stable electron configurations have even numbers of electrons, so often when a bond breaks, either one atom takes both the electrons and creates two charged species, or both atoms find something else to bond with. Either option keeps the electrons neatly paired up. When the bond between oxygen atoms in a peroxide breaks, neither oxygen atom wants to let go of the electrons; their electron affinity is too strong. What often happens instead is each oxygen leaves the bond with one electron, creating two very unstable molecules called radicals.

Between oxygen's strong affinity for electrons and having an unpaired electron hanging around, these molecules will react with just about anything - including all your biological molecules whose functions depend on their molecular structure being exactly the way it is. To make matters worse, most of these biological molecules have a nice, stable, paired-electron configuration. Reacting with a radical can turn them into a radical, which then reacts with another biological molecule and produces a different radical ... and the only way to break this cycle once and for all is to react with another radical and pair their odd electrons.

So there you have it; peroxides are not only very unstable, but they can initiate a chain reaction that will seriously fuck up your shit if they're not dealt with (e.g. by antioxidants) as soon as possible!

7/17/14 addendum: It has been pointed out to me that reactive oxygen species (ROS) may play a role in the body's signaling mechanisms, and that large doses of antioxidants may actually inhibit those mechanisms. However, that doesn't change many aspects of my message. Even when ROS are used for signaling, the body still needs to have mechanisms in place to dispose of them in a timely manner, so antioxidants still have an important role to play in our bodies. Also, since people in the industrialized world tend not to eat enough vegetables and eat too many high-calorie foods, it's probably not unreasonable to suggest that we include antioxidants in our diet.

Feb 4, 2014

An introduction to antioxidants

One of my pet peeves when it comes to nutrition in our culture is that people just throw around words, and we're just supposed to accept that those things are "good" or "bad" without spending a whole lot of time thinking about what they do. So as I was reading about the antioxidant properties of some very interesting molecules, I thought I would take a moment to introduce the antioxidant beyond telling you that something is an antioxidant and assuming you'll just accept that that's "good."

Everything our bodies do requires energy, and all that energy is the result of chemical reactions. The chemical reactions are extremely complex, but basically it boils down to the movement of electrons and other electrically charged objects. Usually the final destination for these electrons is safe, stable water, but the process isn't always that neat and tidy. The more energy the body needs, the more reactions the body is handling and the more side reactions occur. Because oxygen has one of the highest affinities for electrons in the universe, these side reactions often produce unstable oxygen-containing molecules like peroxides and superoxides. Unstable molecules can also be produced by things like outside surges of energy (like ultraviolet light) or processing toxins.

What antioxidants do for you is provide alternative destinations for those stray electrons. They react with unstable molecules in ways that can be more safely controlled. They are an important part of how our cells handle metabolic stress.

Jan 20, 2014

Vampires and werewolves

As I thought about this story idea that's been incubating, it occurred to me that my protagonist might be turning into a vampire. Ok, fine, I've been rolling with the weird things that pop out of my brain for over thirty years now. I can work with this. Then I realized that werewolves might be showing up as well, and I was a little disappointed. C'mon, brain, you're more original than that!

That got me thinking, though: what is it about vampires and werewolves that so many creators put them together in stories? I think it's because they contrast each other so nicely. Vampires are monstrous because they aren't alive enough - cold, only able to experience the life force by stealing it from others. Werewolves are monstrous because in a way they're too alive - hot-blooded, primal, and visceral.

Cliche or no, I might just take this and play with it ...

Jan 9, 2014

The face of entropic technology

I'm not usually a very visually-oriented person. For example, in my dreams I can usually remember events and the identities of the people involved, but I only rarely remember what everything looks like. I even identify people I don't know by what they do, i.e. The Wizard, The Person Who's Trying to Kill Me, The Person Who Herds the Sheep, you get the idea. My husband did the layout for this blog, because I didn't want to mess around with what it looked like. Right now is an exception, though, because as I think about this fictional field of entropic technology I would like to create, I envision it having a very distinct appearance.

To begin with, the stickler for scientific accuracy in my head will not let me write this post without stating that all existing technology makes use of entropy, because anything that would violate the Second Law of Thermodynamics doesn't happen, including the things humans want to make happen with technology. This hypothetical field I am trying to create is based on a certain focus of awareness. For example, an engineer in the field of electronics has a very firm grasp of the applications of electromagnetism. It occupies a central place in their awareness, and other fields of science are more peripheral. In fact, I once took a physics course in which an electrical engineering student kept asking why an electrical engineering student needed to study certain topics (I could rant A LOT about engineering students who don't want to learn physics ... maybe some other time). For an entropic engineer, thermodynamics would occupy that central position in their awareness.

Now that that's out of the way, back to what it looks like. It's a field of technology, so its appearance will need to reflect a human being's desire to direct a course of events. That's one of the cool things about electronics - all those cables and wires and linear components, you can almost see the channeling of human will right in front of you. I definitely want entropic technology to have components like that.

On the other hand, it's a field of technology based on entropy. It's the channeling of human will by hedging probabilities in their favor. It's going to be a little messy-looking. So, what do you get when human will interfaces with entropy? You get a pair of earbuds after you've left them in your pocket for a while. In fact, one of these days I would love to model the thermodynamics of earbuds in a person's pocket. Maybe I should add that to my repertoire of creative projects. That is the aesthetic I would like to build on.

So there you have it, ladies and gentlemen, the face of entropic technology: knotted-up earbuds!

Jan 6, 2014

Music that makes me feel creative

I slacked off yesterday and didn't do anything particularly creative; I played way too many computer games instead. However, while I was overindulging in computer games I did listen to a lot of music that often makes me feel very creative. Since that's the closest thing I did to achieving my daily goal, I think I'll share what music has that effect on me. There is just something about these particular songs that make me feel a little restless, like something extraordinary is lurking behind all the ordinary things in my life. It's an excellent feeling


Jan 4, 2014

So far in my steampunk/mystery/science fiction story


  • Female protagonist with chronic fatigue syndrome and an interest in science (yes, she might end up having many things in common with me)
  • A field of technology called "entropics"
  • A pair of musicians with weird insights into the future
Ooh! The real-life musicians who inspired this part are electronic musicians. Maybe the characters in my story should be entropic musicians - people who have figured out how to use entropic technology to make music!

I think it's time to shit or get off the can; time to start writing!

Jan 3, 2014

Idea ball!

Two different story ideas I've been playing around with have suddenly collided. It all started when my husband made the comment that the only reason no one flirts with me lately is that I rarely leave the house. Then my dad chimed in and commented (jokingly - my dad is one of the least misogynistic people I know) that you just have to keep women barefoot, in the house, and give them Epstein-Barr virus (the original source of all this unpleasantness). That got me thinking about a mystery/science fiction story in which chronic fatigue syndrome is the result of an anti-feminist plot to keep women from pursuing anything outside the home. It makes sense, since women seem to be more susceptible. And since patriarchy isn't just about oppressing women, but about oppressing anyone who doesn't fit a very narrow definition of "man," it doesn't hurt my plot in the slightest that males are affected as well.

Then this New Year I got slightly inebriated and started thinking about how a steampunk world might approach technology, and how it might be different from what we see here and now. That was fun. Still needs some refining, but it was fun. I consider any day I get to talk or write about entropy to be a good day.

Then today I had an appointment with my doctor. He commented that not very long ago everyone would have told me there was nothing wrong with me. I added that if I were rich, I could have gotten a vacation to the seaside to "rebuild my constitution," and that started a quick, interesting conversation about how Excelsior Springs used to be a health resort. Thinking about illness in a more historical context made those two story ideas smash together in my head. Time to make this into a steampunk/mystery/science fiction story in which chronic fatigue syndrome (or whatever delicate, euphemistic name I decide to give it) is an anti-feminist plot!

And I'll be able to work on it for half an hour at a time ... maybe even a whole hour if I'm having a really good day.

Dec 29, 2013

My cloud blanket

Poof! I jump under my blanket
Fluffy, white, and apricot
Like a cloud at sunset

Warm on my body
Cool on my mind
Poof! My troubles are lighter

Poof! I roll over; it's all around me
Wrapped in a cloud
Floating through dreams

Dec 27, 2013

I'm not (too) self-absorbed

When I first started this goal of doing something creative every day and posting the results, I was concerned that it was just a self-absorbed, self-indulgent thing to do. That's something you'll find out if you get to know me at all - I often analyze my own motives for doing things, and I analyze their impact on other people. Consequently, a lot of my sentences start with "I am/was concerned that ..."

This time, I was concerned that I was being self-absorbed and self-indulgent. It's still possible that I am (I don't think anyone is completely immune), but I've noticed something interesting as I remain committed to this goal. It makes me more interested in the projects other people are working on. If someone puts their new song up on the internet, I'm more likely to check it out now. I've been spending more time looking at the creative things my friends are doing. I've been reading more. Instead of becoming consumed by the next thing I'm going to put on display, I have instead begun looking beyond myself more. That was a pleasant surprise.

Dec 25, 2013

Energy

Everything is energy:
Size and shape
Power, complexity

Dec 23, 2013

My science fiction double standard

I've thought about this problem I've been having with my insecurities getting in the way of my writing science fiction, and I've realized that it's even more comical that I originally thought. At first I was just amused because insecurity is amusing; it's so unnecessary and counterproductive, but we all have it to some extent. The only way not to be crippled by it is to recognize it and laugh at it. Then I started thinking about Dune by Frank Herbert. When I was reading Dune I just accepted the fact that some quirk of Paul Atreides's genetic makeup combined with the drug spice gave him prescient abilities, and I moved on to enjoy the hell out of that book. On the other hand, if I were going to write that novel I would be trying to figure out what how Paul's body would take in the information of the universe needed to be prescient, what collection of biomolecules would process that information, and what role the spice would play in that process. And even if I figured out all those things, I would be bracing myself for some hole to present itself.

That's my initial approach, even though I don't expect that kind of detail from most of the things I read. Yay double standards!

Dec 21, 2013

Abandon

Shall I build a tower
A single block each day
So thin the slightest breath
Could blow it away?

Or shall I dance one time upon the stones
And gather my breath into a single song?
Shall I keep my body warm
Or fuel my fever until it ignites?

Dec 20, 2013

Science and science fiction (and insecurity)

My original plan for today was to play around with some ideas I have for a novel, but I got stuck. I would like for it to have some science fiction/fantasy elements in it, but I suddenly realized that I know a lot of people who are very knowledgeable about science who might very well be reading this. I started worrying about them making fun of me, and I locked up (which makes no sense, because they're all really nice people - that's why I communicate with them).

Now that I think about it, my insecurity is also the reason I hesitated to apply for grad school. I worried that I wouldn't have what it took. This is actually why I made it my goal to post something every day. There's no way I can possibly perfect something in a day, forcing me to get over my insecurity and just throw a little of myself out there. I haven't quite worked myself up to throwing my crazy imaginings out there, so today I'm throwing my insecurity out there instead. Enjoy!